My bf agreed he needed help two weeks ago. We had wrote down alot of stuff and agreed it looked like PTSD. He spends alot of time in the past. Doesnt truly look forward. Cannot manage finances and in all honesty has had some messy stuff in his life.
Ive not been happy since january and ive been in a battle with myself because i lnow i dont feel i want it. He lies alot. I have no idea why. But he does. I think its shame sometimes and him trying to manage different things. He also runs away from conflict. He walks away. Wont speak. Shuts down and always says he wants me to stop having ago.
Then yesterday he was assesed. They said it he had the worst end of depression (clinical) hes now having weekly telephone appointments.
I dont see how this will help. Hes not even in the room with them. I also feel he isnt going to be totally open with them. I think he woll tell them whats happened to him in the past but not really speak about how hes treating people.
I know he was drinking alot in his last relationship as she was too. He kept chatting to women online and some physical cheating took place. I know for 3 years after he fell into a really low place and overdosed. Ive had a few people say he wont forgive himself for loosing her. But it feels hes doing the same stuff in our relationship. He doesnt drink now.
Mental health is high in his family. I know hes unwell. He isnt happy or living a real life. But i am struggling to keep my anixety down and always doubting him. I dont trust him. I know once the trust is gone its gone. But i cannot seem to walk away.
Im almost thinking i need to tell myself in my own head its over and just distance myself. It feels like theres no hope of this getting better.