Have been a couple of daytime dates with a guy. Very much my type but hanging back as I don't really don't what I want right now, but post separation, keen just to reequaint myself gently in dating world.
So this guy, yes unfortunately OLD, met him. Twice for a walk and then coffee in park. He's lively, handsome, charming, really well read, really expressive. First date about a month ago, second just last week as we were both away.
So basically I don't know whether I am actually paranoid too much about what I've read about guys these days. But he is really into me and em I guess I am confused. Single Mum two young kids, not remotely convenient in terms of where we both live, surely he could get a lovely girl with no kids who lives closer to him?? He said a month ago before he headed away that he understand if I meet someone else but he'd love me to wait to see him when he got back which I did.
I don't know why the hell I am so suspicious of men now. Terrified of feeling used. He had made it extremely clear that he wants to get me into bed, hobearly I would love it too. But I have this sinking feeling that I am going to feel used and he'll disappear. To be honest I think no matter who the guy I feel like that going to happen. Maybe it's cause of all the chat of OLD and what the dating world is like now. And maybe also I harbour a bit of silly irrational stigma about being a single Mum which may mean men could assume I'm desperate for sex or affection and easy targets.
I really like this guy, loads of fun, really handsome and sexy, a gent I think and just very interesting and affectionate but I cannot seem to even begin to remotely to trust anyone. He rather obvious desire perhaps has made me super suspicious but at the same time very sexy and exciting???
Anyone have any thoughts? My mindset is taking the fun out of it !!