Together nearly 15 years (late teens back then), one DC.
He is the kindest most considerate person I know and when we're relaxed, we laugh a lot together. He's also a brilliant dad. The problem is I've stopped finding him attractive over the last few months and when he tries even just to hug me I can't help but squirm a bit. I wish he could sometimes take a bit more control in our lives as I struggle to be the manager all of the time and sometimes don't have the energy to do so. He doesn't really have wants or ambitions of his own, everything is down to whether it makes us happy.
He's a great person but these things do bother me and I can't help it. I'm stuck in a place between really wanting to work on it and wanting to leave. It feels difficult to do either of these things though I'm leaning towards wanting to work on it. Any ideas other than trying to feign some kind of attraction?