I feel mortified about this. I've worked with this guy for almost six years and I've always been attracted to him, though not in the sense that I would do anything about it. He's married with children anyway. Nor in the sense that I think about him or fantasise or anything because I don't, I don't dwell on it. But occasionally it creeps up on me. Today we had a meeting together which we do once a week anyway and he just looked hot. It was what he was wearing I suppose that heightened the effect. And I have thought about him during the evening and felt mortified about that. I also dream about him sometimes. He's a fantastic colleague, very supportive, the best workmate ever to be honest. We disagree on occasion but really get on well. Changing my job isn't an option, I love my work. He's no idea that I fancy him and I don't want him to know. I just feel like a teenage airhead sometimes.