So short story I've been with my kids father 10 years he's always had a real nasty temper which comes out in verbal abuse , we did end and decided after a while apart to try again but recently I brought up an issue to him and he said I'm boring and repetitive and always looking for problems he basically shut me down and proceeded to give a solution to my issues while pushing my feelings to the side and not wanting to talk anymore on it and told me I need to grow up , the next day I explained how that made me feel and I was then met by threats of violence him saying watch when I see you , basically saying he will harm me told me I shouldn't be on this earth told me I should just end my life and my existence is the only problem in his life. This isn't the first time he's spoken like this and worse but that's why I feel so stupid what is wrong with me why does something so small end up in threats and abuse why did I go back to him. He usually ends up turning it all on me and it's always without doubt my fault and then days later will try to be all sweet and realize he needs to change. Same old story every time I know to some it may be logical I walk away which is what I want to do but I feel like it's really messed me up mentally over the years.