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feelingfreeeventually · 22/05/2024 05:38

I am hoping someone can offer their own thoughts around this if they have been there themselves and how they handled it.
My relationship with my DM has been strained and gradually got worse over the last few years, this is due to her own issues including being a heavy drinker. For the last 18 months or so when I was still living at home I was walking on egg shells and could never rely or trust on her for anything, due to her behaviour while drunk/hungover and even sober but always tried everything to help and support her which was always thrown back in my face.
Myself and DP have recently moved into our first home after a long wait and are couldn't be happier. But the moving in excitement was ruined by my DM behaviour, the days before moving in (we already had keys but wanted to clean the house ect) she was constantly sending messages such as telling me I couldn't get my possessions from her house and that I was a horrible nasty person ect. So I chose to move earlier than planned so I could make sure I had everything. She was awful when I told her I was going sooner and was throwing my stuff into the street and screaming abuse at me.
We are now in the house and have been for a number of weeks and couldn't be happier here. I have since had limited contact with DM as emotions have been all over the place, feelings of hurt, sadness, relief to finally be free of that behaviour. But despite asking her and telling her I need space to process everything she continues to message every few days with 'I know you hate me but...' and it's nearly always to try and play some mind games or start an argument. But I really feel done. I've realised how much she has ruined different life events these last few years which I had pushed to the back of my mind, how I've never had privacy living with her, she's always made me feel like shit for having my own life. I look now and realise I don't recognise her as my DM anymore as the person she is now and has been these last few years is a different character altogether, but while I was living with her, once in a while I would get my lovely mother back for a day or so before she turned nasty again and I think that's what I've clung to for so long.
I guess after all that bumbling on what I'm trying to say is, has anyone ever stayed LC or gone NC with their DM and how did it play out for you? Like did you sit them down and explain why you wanted that?
Any help appreciated, thank you

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Motnight · 22/05/2024 06:44

Your mother sounds awful, Op.

I went NC with my nasty alcoholic mother. Honestly it was the best thing I could have done. I did it quietly with no fanfare so by the time she realised I was already feeling stronger about my decision.

solice84 · 22/05/2024 06:50

I also went nc with my alcoholic mother
She was an alcoholic from when I was about 12 until she died when I was 36
I'd been nc for about 2 years before she died so I'd endured alot of the guilt trip and nasty stuff you've been through
Honestly I know I sound awful but I have no regrets and I wasn't that upset when she died
She just wouldn't get help and she lost everyone , my dad left her and her own brother also went nc , yet it was all everyone else's fault of cause

feelingfreeeventually · 22/05/2024 09:57

Motnight · 22/05/2024 06:44

Your mother sounds awful, Op.

I went NC with my nasty alcoholic mother. Honestly it was the best thing I could have done. I did it quietly with no fanfare so by the time she realised I was already feeling stronger about my decision.

Thank you for that. I've thought about doing it quietly but I feel like that just wouldn't get through it that makes sense? I feel as though more time goes on I definitely feel stronger in wanting to stay away.

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feelingfreeeventually · 22/05/2024 09:58

solice84 · 22/05/2024 06:50

I also went nc with my alcoholic mother
She was an alcoholic from when I was about 12 until she died when I was 36
I'd been nc for about 2 years before she died so I'd endured alot of the guilt trip and nasty stuff you've been through
Honestly I know I sound awful but I have no regrets and I wasn't that upset when she died
She just wouldn't get help and she lost everyone , my dad left her and her own brother also went nc , yet it was all everyone else's fault of cause

Thank you for that, I know exactly what you mean how it's everyone else's fault, very much a victim mentality.

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solice84 · 22/05/2024 10:00

I think I did send my mother a final text before I blocked her
Something along the lines of if you ever get help and sort yourself out but until then I'm not going to put up with it anymore
I literally never heard from her when she was sober
She only ever contacted me when drunk and it could be at any time of day

solice84 · 22/05/2024 10:01

I started this thread a while ago if you want to join

Support group for those affected by someone else's drinking www.mumsnet.com/Talk/alcohol_support/4581221-support-group-for-those-affected-by-someone-elses-drinking

feelingfreeeventually · 22/05/2024 14:15

solice84 · 22/05/2024 10:01

I started this thread a while ago if you want to join

Support group for those affected by someone else's drinking www.mumsnet.com/Talk/alcohol_support/4581221-support-group-for-those-affected-by-someone-elses-drinking

Thank you so much I'll take a look!

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