So I've been seeing an amazing guy for around 6 months and we're going away next weekend for his birthday.
We haven't had sex yet, we've been waiting till I'm ready. Previous relationship was abusive on that front. There's never been any pressure from current partner, he knows about my past and has been very supportive.
We've been intimate, just haven't had sex yet. Last week the subject came up whilst we were having a kiss and cuddle. I said how much I'd like it and think would enjoy it with him. He said he's ready whenever I am but said will leave it up to me to say when. I said how about on your birthday during the weekend break and he said that would be lovely. We talked about birth control and he said would buy condoms. So we have a lose plan for his birthday night.. I guess I'm just a bit nervous about doing it. I haven't been with anyone since abusive ex almost 10 years ago. It was so traumatic I thought I'd never want to be with anyone again tbh. But this guy has changed my view and I'd really like to.
How do I bring it up with him on his birthday? I don't expect him to bring it up as he's not the sort to say hey you agreed. Should I get the condoms and leave them visible in hotel room to let him know I'm ready?