I was with my ex for 9 years - we were engaged , owned a house and have a dog. He was the love of my life but as our relationship broke down he got emotionally/ physically abusive and always sought attention from other women. He also stole from me , damaged my property and made me out to be crazy - as a result I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD.
I rent my own place while the house is up for sale and everyday I keep pushing forward but the bottom line is I miss him and no matter how hard I fight it I love him. I crave his cuddles and just our life when it was good. We’ve been apart for a year and a half but I just can’t seem to stop loving him. No matter what dates I go on or how nice people are they just don’t compare to him.
Im terrified I’m never going to meet anyone that makes me stop loving him. Could it work again if I just told him how I felt?
My friends and family all hate him now but deep down I know he’s a good person and maybe this has changed him for the better? I just don’t see myself with anyone but him