After a lot of advice and support from a lot of you on here (thank you from the bottom of my heart), my partner & I finally ended our unhealthy relationship.
(Please no judgy comments)
The thing is, whilst I know it's the right decision (as does he), I now will be single and pregnant (again)... I'm 13 weeks, I already have a 10 year old (and was single and pregnant with him too)...
I just feel so much shame. And I'm so upset because as much as I love him, I know we aren't good for eachother. I keep crying & my hearts in pieces. Knowing I'll be bringing this baby up alone (he will be relocating) and navigating motherhood with a newborn alone again is so so so sad.
I feel so ashamed of myself for getting into this situation again. And so so sad that another of my kids will essentially grow up without their father, like my first child has.
And whilst I know I'm fully capable of being a single parent, my son is an incredible boy, I know I can manage, it's just so bloody upsetting that this is happening again.
I'm not looking for any advice really, just to vent. Altho if anyone has any advice or life experiences to help me overcome these feelings, that would be appreciated.
Thanks for listening without judgement