i've been with my fiance for four years and were planning a wedding. we have been very stressed lately just with a lot going on. about a month ago i started feeling something every night in bed for about a week and i never said anything. it felt as though he was beating off right next to me in bed while i was trying to sleep. when i brought this up to him he immediately blamed my mental illness and suggested something was wrong with me and my meds (which i was making progress with, with the help of a psychiatrist and therapist.) i told him that i know what i felt and i know what's going on and he still stayed adamant nothing was happening. he set up a camera, the camera showed nothing, but i still felt what i was feeling. except on the camera he was laying different than how he was when i was "catching" him before (including twice now i've felt his d*ck being hard when i caught him but he told me it wasn't or that it was but he wasn't sure why it just happens when you sleep) the problem is then... he acts or says he is very understanding he wants to be with me and that everything will work out with the help of my therapist and psychiatrist. but i can't help feeling that he is lying to me and just purposefully making me feel crazy but i have no idea why he would want to do that. i love him a lot and we have been through so much together i can't imagine my life without him. does anyone think there's a chance it really is just my mental illness?