I have been with my partner 18 years we met when he visited my local pub. He moved 90 miles to be with me and helped bring up my daughter. We have had a tough few years due to his now long term health problems and unemployment. I supported him through this. Problem is I would love to get married but he says he cant see the point we are both divorced. He said his last marriage was a mistake I heard through a friend that she gave him an ultimatum. last year I more or less did the same and he agreed but a month later he said he didnt really want to so I cancelled the register office and was gutted. A couple of times after a few drinks he has said he should have married his first love. Bear in mind he had chance to get back with her at one point and he said no! Admittedly as he keeps saying she is from 20 years ago, To be fair this still makes me feel worthless . I feel she is everything Im not. I feel although I am his longest relationship and have been there through thick and thin im worth nothing!