I wish I could turn off my feelings now. I’ve done a lot of research and understand why and how and what etc but I can’t stop living despite it. Im fed up of comparing my life or getting jealous of people who haven’t had to experience it. I know I can’t change it, I know I’d really rather have not had to have experienced it but I also know it’s over now. But my thoughts won’t leave it alone. I know it wasn’t my fault. I know I grew up to think my feelings weren’t important and I know they are now. But I wish they’d (my feelings) would just shut up now so I can enjoy my life.
I have this negative view of myself that I can’t seem to shift.
How can you stop yourself from thinking about it and having negative feelings about it. Will I think like this forever?