I can’t seem to shift this feeling. I bring it up now and again and he always tells me to not be silly but then I don’t think he understands the seriousness.
I have M.E/C.F.S. I have 2 young children and only work a few hours a week as I can’t cope with anymore. I’m struggling all the time as I push myself to do all the things I can do for the kids whilst they are young, all the days out and the holidays. I put on a front most days when I’m on my knees, I know this won’t help, but I don’t want to spend time in bed, I want to live a nice life.
Im worried I will get to a point I won’t be able to go out because I’m so unwell. I’m worried that in the pushing I’ll make myself worse and eventually he will get fed up and leave. He is 7 years younger and I’m 40, he won’t want to be with someone who can’t go out. He is an outdoors person. He is also so nice I wouldn’t want to inflict that like onto him. I don’t think I’d cope without him financially which is a terrible reason to be someone (this isn’t why I’m with him but if definitely be in trouble without). We’ve been together over 4 years.
Has anyone else been like this?