I'm going to leave my relationship situation after 4 years. The man is in need of psychiatric help and he's controlling to the extent he said "I am the boss of you". He's erratic, paranoid, suspicious and hostile. We can't have a normal conversation like we did at the start and he seemed ok,a bit quirky, but you think nothing of it. 4 years on he has ranted about he is under spells and people are targetting him and any illness is caused by others. He's accused me of plotting "with a gang" to poison him and wreck his life. He's had over 40 jobs in his life and everyone else was always to blame or wanted him gone. I think he shows signs of schizophrenia, because now he thinks he can see spirits and knows the future. He ranted on he "knows" somebody is after Kate Middleton and caused her cancer. I did leave once and should have stayed gone, but he drove to see me and cried and wore me down. He's now become fixated on a religion and deities and controlling how we eat, no eggs or onions, can't have any occassional sweet treat. My bp is up and I am suffering with feeling panic around him. I'm not in 2 minds about leaving this time and have to get away for my own life. I have anxiety and was in a down place. He mocks this and yells he helped me and did so much yadda yadda. He now yells we cqn't have any negative thought, even if it is a sensible observation about something tonight that a shop may not have the item he wants. He said, don't think that way or you'll make it happen! As if I can control what frigging products the shop will have!!!! There isn't any family to help as my parents are both gone and I don't talk to my sibling and I moved to his area and made zero friends. This life is stifling and he's a controlling jerkwho needs help. He won't look after his health conditions and has asthma and smokes, then has an asthma attack and his paranoia tells him someone "injected" his cigarettes. He's going blind too as he won't get his cataracts fixed and I have tried, but get accused of wanting him in hospital! I cannot live with this anymore and hopefully in a short time I'll have enough to up and go.