Hi, thanks to anyone who reads this. I just need to put it out there because these things really bother me.
There's someone at work who I really like. We spoke properly for the first time a few weeks ago and they seemed really happy about it. A couple of days afterwards we saw each other again, smiled and just looked into each others eyes for some time. It was really nice but sort of unusual to me. I was going away for a few days and at the end of a shift said good night to them. They seemed really touched by this and replied using a voice they never use with anyone else at work. But lately, I've just kept missing opportunities to speak to them and at one point last week, I let my social anxiousness get the better of me as they said 'hi' when waiting for the lift and I said hi back- really friendly, nice smile but I wasn't expecting to see them and just kept walking. It really bothered me for the next few days and I got a sense that they were possibly offended (but you never know what people are thinking). So I sent them this message:
I really want to apologise about the other day- I was hoping to in person but wasn’t sure when I would get the opportunity again. I’ve got in to a bad habit of getting too fixed on whatever job I’m doing, just saying ‘hi’ and then disappearing. It honestly isn’t any kind of negative refection on you, I’m not the best at communicating sometimes and it’s just me getting caught up in work when I should slow down. I regret it so much and I’m so sorry about how it must look. It meant a lot to actually talk to you properly the other week, you’re obviously a great person and I hate the idea of offending you in any way. I hope you can forgive me and please know this won’t happen again. I’m really sorry.
I'm not a weird person who makes people uncomfortable but now I'm worried that it was just too much - I have no one to run this by right now and keep running over this whole thing in my head- I always over think things. Does anyone have any thoughts? Thank you