Hi all (long time lurker, first time posting!) and just need a space to get this out. About 15 years ago, my (supposed) best friend gradually distanced themselves from me to the point of zero contact. I did reach out a couple of times to ask if they were okay (they were always very open about how they tended to withdraw when things got a bit overwhelming). I never received any responses to these messages.
Despite this, I have always thought about them (eg. the usual birthdays/Christmas time, life events that I wish I had them around in my life to share the news with). Last month I dropped them a message saying hi, asking how life is going and wishing them well. Prior to this I had been weighing up how I would feel if I didn't get a response to any messages sent Vs. forever wondering the "what if" if I was to never reach out and try.
Anyway - they didn't respond.
I don't really know what I'm seeking from this post other than a space to get this out. Whilst I did the grieving of the friendship that was all those years ago, I guess this just feels a bit final.
I feel grateful for the fond memories of the friendship that we had, and clearly it was just for "a season". X