Hi, hope you don't mind me sharing on here. I'm 42, been single for coming up to a year after my ex walked out with our 2 boys, said they didn't love me anymore and walked, had no prior warning.
Although taking a step back the past year they were very cold, often I felt rejected, pushed away when trying to cuddle, or initiate intimacy, they never, ever initiated intimacy was always down to me.
For 6 months we didn't speak, albeit when we dropped the boys off, and for 6 months they were living with family temporarily. As soon as they got their own place 6 months ago the contact door started to open, but it's been many ups and downs over that time, we spent Christmas and new years eve together which was great, we spent Feb half term together which was lovely, staying at each other's homes, then last week we slept together for 4 nights on the trot, but now they've pulled back, gone distant and minimal contact this week again.
Its left me feeling confused, hurt, used, and all those feelings I had about not being good enough, feeling rejected, wondering what's wrong with me are bubbling underneath the surface. Everytime I try and speak to them about the situation I just get silence back.
Sorry, I just really needed to vent