Quite terrified to even be typing all this but I could really do with some outside advice. I have recently separated from my Partner, this was something that I instigated. We've been together for roughly 4 years and married since last year. I haven't felt completely happy for a while, he doesn't pull his weight at home, constantly losing jobs, his moods are always all over the place so I feel like I'm walking on egg shells. He also turns awful when he drinks, including the night of our wedding which meant at the very end of what should have been the happiest day of my life, it turned into a very verbal and physical fight. I was heartbroken. He's not taken the separation well and I've been very respectful of his feelings and given him the space he needs but we are still living together as we have a DD. Last weekend he attempted to kill himself (it seemed more of a cry for help than an actual attempt) but he blamed me for this, I'm the reason he's going to die alongside calling me several awful names. I tried to stop him hurting himself and I was physically assaulted in the process. Since this he has been extremely emotionally abusive. I didn't really think of it this way until recently and it's really, really getting to me. In an ideal world I would make him leave today but he has absolutely nowhere to go. I'm spending every single day walking on egg shells, I'm having frequent heart palpitations and I'm so on edge. I don't know what I'm supposed to do going forward