Is it even possible to make feelings come back once they’re gone or is it just delaying the inevitable? Sorry for the upcoming essay but I think it would help to write everything down!
I’m just tired of DP and would like to leave, but at the same time he is a good bloke and I worry I’d be making a huge mistake.
He drinks quite a bit, to the point that one of his own friends sat him down and told him he needs to pack it in. He gets proper falling down drunk every month or so, ordinary drunk most weekends. He works full time and hardly drinks during the week so would never see himself as having a problem, but I can’t be doing with it anymore. A couple of weeks ago the barman had to help me get him into the car and asked if I’d be ok and looked as though he felt sorry for me. I don’t want to carry on like this.
He also doesn’t do much around the house etc. We don’t have DC together but I have my own teenagers and don’t have the energy to deal with a bloke who tries to party like a 20 year old.
He was upset when I said I wanted to split up and said he would change - is doing a food shop right now - but we’ve been here before and he’ll probably go back to normal in a couple of weeks. I did love him before but that’s gone now and I can’t even remember what it felt like tbh.