Hi, I'm new here. I don't know whether this is the right forum, or if there are even any answers to my situation. I suspect there aren't.
I want to stress right now that I have no plans to harm myself. I just have no interest in living any longer.
In a few months time my eldest son will marry and bring his bride to live in my home. At that point they will edge me out. I, my son says, can go and live in a rented flat. They don't want to start married life with "a horrible old woman hanging round our necks". I'm 63.
My beautiful home, the only possession I have worth anything, I have spent all my working life paying for. It hasn't been easy. I was widowed when my two children were six and two. I raised them alone. My plans for retirement in four years time, at which point my mortgage will be paid up, were to live free of housing costs. I would have been comfortably off with my pension. All that is in tatters now. I'll be paying rent for the rest of my life.
My son moved back home two years ago because I have MS and had a series of falls, although I still work full-time. He met his fiancee just over a year ago. I would have been happy to welcome her here, but then the comments started. How friends were coming over from the USA in August and they would invite them to stay but I was in the way. Stuff like that. Culminating in his 'offer' that I should leave and they would take over paying the mortgage. Which has only four years to run.
After enduring months of his screaming abuse at me, slamming doors, threatening to leave and take my dog, breaking my possessions, I have no fight left in me. Every time I try to talk to him he manages to twist things so that I'm in the wrong. So I just spend my evenings crying in my room.
Sorry this is so long, but even if no one reads or replies, at least I have got it off my chest, somewhat.