I’m a bit confused. I’ve heard over and over that I am to blame for the way my husband treats me (mostly from him) but also from people around me and from reading into it.
My parents were ok, but they neglected me emotionally. I was a very sensitive child, it’s just how I was born and they didn’t raise me accepting me. I obviously have developed low self esteem and allowed my husband to abuse me.
Am I to blame for accepting this behaviour? All I hear from my husband is how can you talk back to me and tell me you don’t like the way I treat you when you accepted me in the beginning. Yes I did but it wasn’t this bad back then. I’m getting to a point where I want to leave but he is so intense all the time. I was also younger and I’ve grown up and fed up of always being to blame for everything.
We went on a holiday that he paid and I planned and booked etc. He didn’t like the size of the garden in the holiday home so I said you should have shown interest when I was looking for places but you weren’t interested. Now all I hear is it’s my money you’ve wasted etc etc. There really wasn’t anything wrong with the place.
Im causing my own miss treatment aren’t I by not standing up to him? But every-time I do it causes an argument and it’s always my fault in the end and we go round and
round in circles, him dragging up arguments from years ago or things I’ve apparently said years ago.