I’m a twenty six year old female That was with a male age twenty four, for the last two years. When we got together, he was the best to me. We soon established boundaries, we faught like hell, he’d walk out on me and come back. After a few months, it changed. I never got a birthday card or a date, I never experienced a valentines or Christmas. I was just the one constantly giving as he never had money due to a gambling addiction. He broke up with me last summer. For drink and cocaine. Every week, he’d be coming back on his come down to just go back. He was going out every week, I went out twice and I was getting emails being the worst in the word. He was on tinder and everything. He played me some more for a few months. Leaving me on a Thursday for the weekend ahead. Around Christmas we decided to give things a propper go. I helped him find a fitness coach to get things going, I was doing the food shops, I was prepping his food .And it became clear to me that people didn’t know we were back together. He accepted a follow request from a new eighteenyear old girl at work (we work in the same hotel, different departments) but didn’t even have me on his socials added back? But claims him and the girl didn’t even speak. And he didn’t want people at work knowing about me to keep it private.I pulled him up on it about her. About why he stays so late when she’s on, why he gets his hair cut three times a week(when she’s working), why he doesn’t text me back when he’s working with her. Why he never leaves his phone around me, even though I don’t know the password. he accused me of being a manipulator. Blocked me and left me again.My heart is geuinley broke as I feel like I’m in the same situation as I was in during the summer which consisted of a waiting game for me. Has anyone been through similar?
How can I move on? I just feel so lost and like this is my fault