Hi there
So I'm 33 years old and I've always struggled with friendships mainly because I just prefer to be alone. Friendships have always failed because I struggle to keep the effort up of seeing/speaking to them but.... a few years ago I got really close to another mum at my daughters school and she became my best friend I absolutely adored her and we would spend every waking minute together that we could which is strange for me because as I said I usually prefer to be alone.
I felt so comfortable around her and we'd always help each other in every way we could, I felt like she really loved me and my daughter and I never feel like anybody loves or values us usually (I am quite lonely with no close family) was just such a nice feeling.
I got quite close to her partners brother and we started dating - she wasn't happy about it at all maybe I should have knocked it on the head then but I didn't I really liked him and it felt nice to feel wanted. In my head I kept thinking eventually it would be okay and how amazing that we could all be super close! It never ended up that way. A couple of years down the line me and him are still together and we have beautiful baby girl, she also has a baby girl too... my problem is is that she's been saying horrible things about myself and my daughter to the other parents at school: she also has said horrible things about us to my partners and her partners family: everyone treats us really off and it's getting me so down..... she's asked a few times if we can repair our relationship and I want to but then she won't even speak to me in public and continues to drag our names through the mud. What do I do? Do I carry on just ignoring it, do I try and fix and forgive and move on? Is it repairable? I feel like because shes said stuff about my 9 year old I just can't move past it but I feel like she will keep making my life shitty in sneaky ways and part of me does miss her.. but I miss the old her