I conceived my baby (unplanned) after only being with my partner for a few months. He loves our baby (14 months) to bits but says he’s not sure he wants to be with me. He’s been hot and cold with me since our baby was 2 months old.
I feel like I can’t keep trying to make him love me (I know that’s not how it works) but I’m so scared to be on my own and I love him/would be happy to stay with him. He was not long out of a divorce and wasn’t looking to settle when he met me so misses his freedom etc. I love my baby but the lack of sleep etc is so hard and I can't see how I could do it on my own.
I feel so lonely as lots of my old friends have just dropped out of my life since I’ve had a baby / moved cities and making new Mum friends has been hard work too. I’ve got people to have play dates with but the friendships just seem to be quite superficial and don’t progress to actually being mates, we just meet up for an hour or two while our babies play. I really don’t have anyone to talk to about anything and I feel so lonely.
I’m just not sure where to go from here. I’d like to focus on me more and take up some new activities to make friends but I’m not sure what. My brain is so foggy form just being a mum 24/7 that I don’t even know what my passions are now.