Hi, I ended it with a guy about 10 weeks ago.
Dated him for 4-5 months seeing him couple of times a week. In the beginning seemed really lovely and I really liked him. I had found out a couple of months in he use to have a really bad cocaine problem then went on to say he did it now and again. But wouldn't do it any more.
So times when I was with him his nose ran constantly like dripped. I had found out a night out when we first got together he was on it. He originally denied it and lied until I found out.
After that I felt unsure and for next couple of months carried it on but ultimately had nothing in common.
I ended it and said we had nothing in common and drugs past I wasn't uncomfortable with.
He went on to drink him self stupid and about two weeks later threaten to hurt him self. Took aload of medication to get me to run to him but I didn't I rang the police.
I struggle with my own mental health my dad died of suicide when I was a kid. He knew this.
He pestered me telling me my reasons were BS. He has left me alone now.
But my friend told me he's been drinking loads. Ringing in sick at work.
I have a whole load of guilt like it's all my fault but I just didn't see it going any were. I wasn't expecting this reaction after such a short relationship.
I have been in previous abusive relationship and I got out because I seen signs of manipulation as well.
I have anxiety and worry and I'm scared he goes down hill and ruins his life. How do I move on from this. I'm really struggling with guilt