There’s 2 issues really. We have been together 18 months. I have strong feelings for him and things are amazing when we are together.
But as soon as we are apart communication feels stilted and like it is 2 strangers talking and then it almost feels like we are having to start from scratch every time we meet iyswim. It feels like it is me making the effort to message him all of time and I think if I didn’t would I hear from him. He says he is just crap with messages and I’m always on his mind even if he doesn’t text.
He also used my laptop a couple of months ago and accidentally left it logged in to his social media. I know I shouldn’t have but I looked and he had been looking at his exes page daily as well as a local Only Fans type girl and other women. They are all very different to me and curvy with big boobs etc. Which has made me feel insecure and crap about myself.
He said he had no intentions to do anything and was just looking, he’s realised it made me feel bad and won’t do it again 🙄 it is in the back of my mind though and he is still quite secretive around his phone.
Will it ever work or is it just going to limp on like this?
I feel like it is best just to call it a day and attempt to move on but it is hard as there are feelings and it sometimes feels like we could have something really good!