oh im livid 😡, his mental health has been in the gutter for years , plays the victim, iv made endless excuses for his behaviour ( he has had some deaths and stress over the years ) , ive supported him throughout and have now moved to help him , no im not perfect i dont claim to be , been having couples counselling for a few weeks , and i started my own counselling 3 weeks ago , ive been loving , suportive understanding , patient. I have been feeling really ill over the past few days , terrible headache and generally crap ( i rarely get ill )
Today i woke up with a headache again , house stinks of oil as boiler needs looking at , husband has been putting off having it looked at for months and months , so yes i did make a few comments for literally a few minutes about it , this annoyed me and i threw a mug in the sink which broke, no im not proud of myself but i was angry , put myself to bed and slept for 5 hours , came down to a angry crazy eyed man who put his hand up 🖐like dismissing me and told me to f##k off , said i treat him like a c##t
I was very clear and told him how dare he talk to me like that , and to apologise , told him to look at me in the eyes and who does he think he is talking to me like that , he said this is all your fault you've ended us bla bla , i thought no im not being spoken to like that and told him he is irrational , and his reaction is disproportial to the fact that prehaps i may have been a bitch today but seriously words hurt and said how would you like it if i put my hand up and told you to f##k off , but i wont as im not stooping to his level , i clearly said i have not and never will treat you like a c##t , i stated apologising and said yes its all my fault i take the blame if it makes you feel better , Seriously mans gone mad , i did point out that his behaviour towards me and all that ive had to cope with with his mental health over the past few years and i cant have a off day 😡2 weeks ago i was set to move out with kids but he convinced me to try again and i agreed to give it 6 months , im so cross with myself to allow him to treat me like this AGAIN , rant over
i am aware he has mental health issues , i am aware he has anger issue , i cannot help him anymore , im done