This is a new anxiety for me.
With my ex-husband I was totally emotionally co-dependent and despised how that controlled me. With my second husband due to the complexities of our relationship this wasn't ever an issue, for which I was then grateful, however over time I realised how much I appreciate and love my DH, how kind and patient he is, how supportive and generous he is in all the many ways that husband should be. I can be a moody so and so, with no patience, and yes he sometimes tells me I'm unbearable, but I'm still his beloved. So sitting here at 11.30, he's gone to bed as he's on a morning shift, and I'm listening to the clock ticking whilst thinking, bloody hell it's so quiet... normally he's sat next to me, chatting loudly on the phone to his family, or talking to me about the news etc.. It suddenly came into my mind how desolate it will be without him. I am not a person who needs a lot of people, just a few close friends etc. both DH and I are homebirds, we don't have any children, and as we've grown older together we seem more like peas in a pod.
Practically I would be at a loss, emotionally I dread to think. My father lost my mum 25 years ago.. he never envisaged that would happen for one minute. He has spent the last 25 years living alone, no radio, hardly any tv., no internet, in a remote area. I don't know how he has coped.
Does anyone else ever feel anxious like this?