I was with an ex for 3 years from age 18-24. We lived together for about 6 months before we broke up. The reason we broke up is because he tended to put my weight down alot and the night before I suspected he was having an affair so asked him and he told me he wasn't, but he was in love with this girl from uni and she didn't even know. I suspect she may have been a close friend. In this relationship, whenever I told him I loved him he could never say it back and when I asked him if he did love me, he always told me he didn't know but was affectionate and loving otherwise. I haven't seen him in person for 3 years.
We stayed in touch via msn since then and chat on there maybe 3 times a month or so. Usually a very basic conversation asking how each other are and chatting about work.
Today he was on and he said hello first. Very unusual for him! We had a little chat and then he asked me when I was getting married. I replied that since I haven't even got a man yet, I will wait til mr right comes along but til then work comes first. I asked him the same question he told me he was in love with someone from my village so I asked who, thinking I may know her. So he said my name and that I was his dream girl. He never even said this the whole time we were together. We then reminised for a bit and I told him he had his chance all those years ago when we was together and then I said 'you are such a joker' and he replied 'ha ha ha, someone has to be'.
Now I feel deflated. It was all a joke. It has been 3 years but I thought, "oh, he finally sees something in me" and thought that now we're both more mature something can happen.
The conversation ended with me saying I have to go but we should meet sometime for a catch up over a coffee and he just replied 'yea'.
I hate men!