I have posted about this before and received mixed advice/replies. But I'm posting again because it's coming to a bit of a head/I've had an epiphany and I don't have anyone I can discuss this with in real life so here I am.
I've been with my partner for just over 2 years. About a year ago, I started wondering whether he was physically attracted to me. I tried talking to him about it and he reassured me that he did but I came away feeling it was just words and platitudes. It just didn't feel true.
I know he loves me and I think he probably finds me/thinks I'm attractive 'enough' but I just don't 'do it' for him.
There are lots of reasons why I think this. I'm happy to give details but don't want to make this post really long, if I'm honest.
I've tried talking with him about it a couple of times since. He always says the same - that he is attracted to me physically - but I'm honestly really just not feeling that from him.
There are a number of reasons why the relationship is really good. I haven't had particularly good relationships in the past and don't have a huge amount of experience sexually. Because of that, I kind of feel that I could live without it. I've got to my late 40s before feeling I was with someone who truly cared and was a genuinely equal partner. And, tbh, I feel like that is more important than sex.
I feel like I've had a bit of an epiphany over the weekend where I can accept it. I just feel I had a moment of clarity