I don’t even know where to start and I think iv came here for some honest brutal advice
(not too brutal I’m fragile 😂)
I am easily and always have been a very hard hearted person.. until THIS ONE
it starts off with the rockiest of starts, my now ex we got talking things were great, he had a child I have children also.
our relationship was blossoming well atleast I thought.. then he started acting shady, disappearing for a week at a time, complaining he was down and depressed.
long story short me and his baby mum are familiar with eschother, one day we got talking and his baby mum told me he had a girlfriend he had recently moved in with and that she knew nothing about me and that she was shocked to hear.
at the time I knew nothing about this other women I fell pregnant in which he baisicly told me I had no choice to have an abortion.. of course reasons & plus the fact she was ALSO pregnant and she had gotten an abortion too (I know disgusting male)
this caused a break for us obviously. He then came crawling back he left her for me bla bla and stupidly at the time I took him back, he cut ties with the other woman and we moved foreward of course I forgiven him but never fully and I would never forget what he did and what I had been through. But all in all we were great very happy all of our own kids were happy together.
all of a sudden things changed but not a big change just small, we tried for a child together which was jointly agreed on ( stupid now I’m aware) I fell pregnant, he then decided he doesn’t want that and pressured and pressured for another abortion.
I stood my ground and eventually he told me he was coming around to the idea but over the last couple of weeks things just got progressively worse, him acting very shady, a spare phone that was in the house has gone missing with no explination, all of a sudden wanting to spend more time away from home and out with friends or working, of course I had suspicions so I approached him and what I got in return was just abuse, shouting that it was all my fault I don’t trust him I’m ruining us beacuse I don’t trust him, this baby in my tummy ruined us, he’s mentally I’ll and he can’t deal with me, just a whirlwind out of nowhere.
he left yesterday and I’d be lying if I said I’m not struggling but why on earth can’t I just see what this man has put me through and say oh no this is enough.
someone how do I move on?
I’m currently 14 weeks pregnant and he just upped and left said it’s not for him he’s falling out of love with me but then In other sentences telling me he loves me he would love it to work but he can’t see a way foreward.
i feel dizzy!
what on earth is going to help me