Back story my biological Mum said to me see you Sunday when a was 8 as I was off to see my Dad, waved my brother and I off. I remember waving back to her and saying bye mum. I never saw her after this she went out on a night out, didn't return for my Dad dropping us back. My Dad went looking for her and she said ' I don't want them' meaning me and my Brother. Am now 42 and this abandonment has affected me my whole life. I have been in relationships where I felt truly loved then they cheated. I've stayed single to find me, and bring my children up. I got with a lovely guy last year still together. He's loyal and we talk bout everything. But this trauma from Childhood makes me not trust anyone, and I feel so bad for my partner cause I panic when he goes out drinking, rare occasion but he did say be back in hour, then texted another hour or so. This went on till 1am from 3pm. Obvs night got hold off him, and he came in and apologised. But it really annoyed me the be with you in hour or so, and then not returning. And I've told him it's things like that that makes my trust issues take over. My best friend says I need therapy for the Childhood abandonment issues, cause she says my lack of trust over everyone is so bad. I overthink everything. I just don't know what to do, I don't want to lose my partner with my issues. He knows about my past and my abusive ex, so just felt a bit letdown that he didn't think him saying be an hour be with you soon babe isn't surging up my last memory of my Biological Mum and her not returning. I feel like the memory consumes me. And noone understands how much it hurts. I don't talk to her, she lives in the same town as me, I have her blocked and she has me blocked. She ruined my trust that day. How do I get back my trust of people.