Changed name as posted before but conscious of saying too much detail.
I've been going to therapy to deal with SA when I was a teenager. I won't go into detail on that but it was a family member and I think it's damaged me more than I realised and it recently brought up issues with their ex wife. Anyway, my mental health has been shocking for the past year since things kicked off with this persons ex wife and then had some stressful life changes around the same time. I have been fixated on ending my relationship for the past year and feeling that my partner is making me miserable etc. I finally left a month ago, thinking it was actually done and the minute I left I regretted it and came back a few days later. My partner hasn't always been perfect but he has put up with a lot of shit the past year and is trying to help me deal with stuff. We went to a therapy session together recently and it really made me think of the way I deal with things and putting up a barrier as I'm scared of being hurt or trapped. I decided when I came back after leaving that I wanted to give it a real go and try to be more positive about the relationship and things are going really well, I feel like I want to be in this relationship again.
I guess this is a long winded way of asking but is it possible that my mental health issues and past abuse have made me view the relationship so negatively? And do you think it's possible to move on from someone breaking up with you and being able to trust them again?