In need of a little rant…
me and dp have been together 8 years, 2 dc and it is an absolutely miserable relationship. I am so tired of being sad and us never being happy.
dp is quite a negative person, never happy and when he is it’s on his terms and conditions. He will find faults with absolutely everything I do, criticise everything I do and turn every day negative at some point.
this evening we have all come home, picked up food on the way back, we come in and I instantly put all of the shopping away into the cupboards, sort the kids school uniforms out, set up the kids food to eat, put more food on to cook for dp, rush around back and forth from showering the dc to checking the food in the oven to taking down wet washing and back to checking on the oven etc.
since coming home the only thing dp has done is change his clothes, eat his food and sit playing a game on the couch… and he still proceeded to add extra jobs for me to do ‘can you do this’ etc. I snapped. I was so frustrated I shouted/cried no! By this point everyone had eaten 1 hour ago and I still hadn’t eaten yet! He has now stormed off to the room and left me alone (we were supposed to watch a movie together) so I guess this is my consequence for getting upset. He knows how lonely I am, I’m always by myself with the dc so by him not watching a movie with me he knows it will upset me as we rarely spend time together.
I am so tired of being unhappy every day. I don’t understand how he can cope being miserable every day either at home. I’m so tired of always being the one left till last, the last one to eat or do anything! I never get time to do anything for myself yet he can do whatever he wants!
I should add, when we first got home and he saw that I had defrosted something particular that I was going to cook for him, he wanted to have a ‘conversation’ about it in the bedroom. He was very annoyed about this and told me how much he hates the oven being on/food being cooked when he’s home. This is something I’m aware of which is why I always cook when he’s at work. However, I had planned to cook for him something he liked (just a quick food) because on a Monday and Friday evening he always tells me to cook quick food for him. So this time I was ahead of the game, only had good intentions and was just trying to make him happy/feed him! Now he somehow doesn’t remember me ever cooking on a Monday evening when he’s told me to (convenient) and is really annoyed that I’ve taken initiative to do that. When I tried to say my part and have the conversation he told me ‘conversations done’ and walked away….
im irritated and annoyed and absolutely fed up of being treated this way