I'm not sure why I'm writing this but I'm currently in therapy and this is something I haven't yet fully discussed with therapist so i guess I'm just trying it out here first. So when I was in year 11 at school (15) I met an older guy (23) and we began dating. In the summer holidays of that year once school had broke up, I was frequently out drinking in pubs with him and his friends and he quickly got me taking cocaine quite regularly. I obviously had no money as I had no job, and so he would pay for everything including the drugs. He would then take me outside of the pub so down a nearby country lane for example after iv already had a few lines of cocaine, and tell me that if I gave him oral sex or do something sexual he would give me some more drugs. I'm so ashamed to say but I would do it as I wanted more and thought well I was in a relationship with him anyway, but he would say things to me while I was doing it like tell me I was a good girl, and 'see good girls that do as there told get rewards' etc. It led to him getting me to have a threesome with another man and eventually i ended up pregnant at 16 and had an abortion. I dno just thinking about it all makes me feel quite ashamed and my life massively spiralled downwards after this, I guess I'm asking if anyone else has been through anything similar?