Hi everyone,
Was with my bf for 7 years from 18 to 25. Massively in love with him but he could never show this back to me. I’d have to ask him to say nice things or message me.
He then moved away so we were long distance. It ended just before Christmas because we couldn’t keep the long distance going and he said he wanted ‘different things’ and wasn’t putting the effort in.
I still love him and have an attachment there but I drunkingly kissed someone else last night in the hope of feeling like I was moving on. It has just made me feel worse. Even though I’m single and won’t be going back to my ex I felt sick with guilt.
How do I move forward? Was it the wrong decision? I really feel I’ll never love anyone like my ex again but he was my only real relationship from an early age.