Brief overview
been with my partner 4-5 years
fell pregnant coming up to second year being together the first year was unofficial
cant put into words how i feel about her just cant all i know shes the love of my life and the mother to our gorgeous boys
when she fell pregnant into the end of the first trimester she went a bit hormone crazy and hated me/didn't want to be with me she literally blocked me out and acted at points that i wasnt good enough for her
it proper fucked us up both me and her went through our own shit
we didnt share a bed or kiss properly or say i love you (from her mouth) for nearly two years or have sex in that time either
she always said she wanted to be with me but she just couldnt stand the thought of being near me
shes called the dragon by me because shes so reserved and puts uo a front because of her sons dad who literally treated her like a cunt (texting another women during the labour of thier son whos now 5 which was to leave her)
so yeah nearly 2 years later she said i love you we had shared a bed and actually got our sex life in a much better place not exacatly where i want it to be as i want to share any experiences i can with her not just because it was forgotten about for soong but because we are good together and i missed her so much
but yeah she gets irritated when i slap her bum … am i just reading into it that
she doesnt show her affection publicly also which is irritating
we talk about our future only just done if over the last weekend
im very open about how i feel about her what i think and what i want just feel like im being stupid but cant help but think she cant feel what she feels and do that because i wouldnt and would never be like that
i love her unconditionally and im not saying she has to act & feel the way i do
just feel lost sometimes
just want insight into this any advice etc
thankyou