I have no more energy left

[Palegreysky]

This Christmas break has been so hard. I’m due back in work tomorrow and I feel so exhausted and broken. DH goes through phases and can be hard work but in the last 2 weeks he has been extremely volatile and demanding and at times so hurtful. Nothing I do is good enough, nothing I say makes sense, I’m holding him back, he could do better, we’ve had it all these days. I can’t wait to have him back in work but I don’t think I have ever felt this exhausted.
The sad thing is that some of what he says is true and I know it myself but he is making it so much worse. Deep down I know that I have to speak to someone other than himself but I’ve just been too exhausted. I hope that going back to work will help but I am dreading the commute which makes me anxious.
I know that people fight over the Christmas break but this has been a new low ..

Op that sounds awful. I understand re commute too. Is there any way u can put some space bwn u snd your husband so u can give yourself some head space to reflect on where you go from.here? Could you book into a hotel for a night or two near where u work? Commute would not be an issue too.

Going back to work won’t resolve the problems. It might be slightly easier not having to be around him constantly like you have been over the festive break but it won’t resolve anything. This relationship will drain the life out of you until you reach breaking point unless you address it properly.

Have you discussed how you both feel? Is therapy an option? If you just grin and bear it that will lead to resentment and then contempt which makes splitting highly unpleasant. By talking about things rationally you can figure out a way forward and if he’s unable to do that I’d be thinking seriously about planning an exit.