Soon to be ex husband had multiple affairs, left me and darling children in spectacular style over two consecutive Christmases, yes, don’t believe they are going o change unless you see massive effort but that has all been and done. Separated for a year, I can finally hold a conversation without crying and although so dreadfully heartbroken for me and my children, I am beginning to accept what has happened and dare I say make moves to continue my life not being in constant heartache. Why then, is my husband when collecting the children say for example this morning, crying and looking so upset, so much I felt awful after I said goodbye to the children. I am cross that he chose this, watched me and the children in so much pain and now he looks so bereft and I now again feel bad! I’ve no idea about the OW - cut all contact in February except for child arrangements.