Couldn't think how else to phrase it. Basically me and Dp can't communicate at all. If I try to bring up difficult or intimate subjects (sex, or our relationship) he either changes the subject or refuses to talk. Even discussing things like me going back to work etc is fecking hard work in itself.
I know I am moaning but he never initiates any conversation that doesn't relate to Tv or something inane or his work. I have to initiate everything, from deciding where our children go to school to what we are going to spend money on.
He acts like he has no emotions whatsoever, I can't get any feelings about anything out of him, he often changes the subject or buts in when I am saying something. But the thing is he is so damn reasonable all of the fecking time. I feel like I am the mad one for wanting him to share something of himself with me. I feel like I'm going mad, like i'm the one in the wrong, and we should just carry on this superficial relationship because there aren't any obvious problems.
He is good in other ways, he gets up with the kids, cooks, kisses me now and again, etc. He says he loves me but I'm not convinced, he's not really interested in me, never asks my opinion, reinforces his opinion if I offer mine (eg he says I like soandso, I say I don't, he says well I do end of conversation).
I just don't know if I'm being unreasonable or not, I have crap self esteem at the best of times and i'm scared of rocking the boat/being alone.