MiL and FiL have always been very different to my own relatives. My side of the family have travelled and have interests in the world beyond the UK (partly due to mixed heritage). My siblings and I are opinionated and have robust discussions, whereas husband's family are all very agreeable and never disagree with each other publicly.
Husband's parents are kind, but we have nothing in common except DH. Since I've had a kid and PND to boot, I have developed a snotty, teenage, defensive attitude around them. I think I've always been a bit amazed at how little interest they have in the world beyond their rural town, but now I find them absolutely maddening. Where has this toxic spike of criticism come from? I really don't like how I act around them these days, snippy and arrogant. I used to be able to smile and take part in somewhat repetitive conversations but now I don't have the energy to mask my feelings and I know it is damaging the dynamic in our extended family. How can I regain that ability to enjoy their company again? Or at least, not be annoyed by their way of doing things? It's like I've lost the will to hide my feelings since Lockdown, but it's important I get this under control before I do some lasting damage. Any thoughts? If not, thanks for reading my inner monologue 😄