Just don't feel happy and Christmassy - third Christmas since breakup

[Hopefulfor2024]

Just that really. The last two I felt better than I do now, and I don't know why. Am thinking back to the cold way I was discarded and the mutual friends I lost. I've been getting on fine really day to day after I got over the heartbreak, but am feeling really flat now. Can anyone else relate?

what is your current life like?

I like my job, I've a hobby I enjoy, good friends, albeit they're busy with their own lives. I live alone and spend quite a lot of time alone.

have you been i a relationship since then?

how will you be spending christmas?

No, nothing since breakup. I'm spending Christmas day with my brother's family and my dad.

Yes I can definitely relate. I know it can be hard when you have negative connotations with Christmas and there's an expectation to be happy and jolly.

Some years ago I must've conditioned myself to not care about the festive period. Even as a child, I didn't really enjoy it. These days it just seems to come and go. Thankfully my wife is on the same page as me.

This will perhaps change once our daughter is born though.