I’ve realised I’ll never be able to have a relationship with someone I used to see. He is a snake and so are all of his friends. I can’t trust him with anything at all. I can’t say anything to him without it being said to someone else. We never had any private moment between us. Even our sex life was broadcast.
I felt unstable and unsafe because I was.
we did enjoy spending time together not talking about ourselves and our lives but other things. I could continue with that, knowing I could never talk about myself or my life again. Knowing he could never be a true friend.
it’s lonely knowing I could never confide in him. Knowing he can’t be trusted with anything. I don’t want him to know who I am and I regret ever telling him anything. As I’m building a new life for myself In starting to feel like I have something that’s private that he can’t ruin because he doesn’t know anything about it. And now I’m keeping him at a distance somewhat.
I don’t want judgement I’ve heard it before and I know it isn’t right. does anyone else have anyone else like this in their lives.