I know the answer but just needed to vent as don't have anyone in RL I can talk to. "DP" is a selfish alcoholic. His priorities only seem to be going out every weekend, until early hours although he didn't come back home last night. I'm 7 months pregnant with our first baby, in temp rental accommodation but he is buying a house which he has said whatever happens me and baby are welcome to stay. I have completed housing association application but can take up to 5 months for this to be processed so feel a bit trapped. He can be nasty once he's been drinking and then the hangover lasts at least until mid week so whilst he's "recovering" from the weekend his temper varies. He says he loves me, will shower me with affection maybe one day a week where everything seems great but then he says we can't be together as it's my fault: I didn't treat him well when I first met him and we were both single as I didn't know what I wanted (had come out of an abusive LTR) and my fault completely, liked being single and finally being free. He apparently "knew straight away" I was the one and makes me feel guilty I didn't feel like that. I don't really know what I'm asking for, advice, reassurance or just kind words. The baby is not at all a mistake and I cannot wait for them to arrive, I just feel ashamed bringing them into the world in this messy situation.