Hi does anyone have any advice not to give headspace to the situation.
Tbh during the day I don’t give any of it a second thought it’s more if I wake up in the early hours etc .
Long story short is I very recently ( last 6 months ) went no contact with parents due to various reasons. Also not a great childhood, dad was violent to my brother for years he is now in 40s and lives with them , mum let it happen she is also toxic how’s she has been with me and my children over the years . Finally had enough when she puts a dangerous dog above her grandchildren I feel good and happy about no contact .
However it’s in the early hours I relive painful childhood memories like my dad saying to me when 16 I’m not too old for a slap etc basically threatening and violent behaviour, also used to hit and kick my brother call him dead meat etc , my brother clearly had mental health issues kicked him in back when sat on sofa next to my dad and brother was sat on floor early 20s . I left home at 17 but stupidly kept relationship going until recently. As far as I know pretty much not long after I moved out violence stopped and over the years brother obviously forgave them. I don’t want my two children ever feeling that way and they’re so precious to me I can’t understand how my parents were so awful over the years. I even remember being told off by my mother as a sick child maybe 8 or so I was sick in bed and she was awful to me saying I should of made it to the toilet etc .
my kids are my world and I can’t imagine treating them so bad . Just want advice whether my thoughts will eventually go or am I stuck with these memories forever I am now mid 30 s. And have a lovely partner and two children. Thanks for listening