How do I ever leave..

[tisawonderfullife]

I hope this is ok to post here.

I left my ex of 10 years last year. I had a newborn, had to move in with my parents and 2 kids as he refused to leave the house.. but I was actually happiest I’d been in years. I started seeing someone new.

I couldn’t stay at my mums so I had to start staying at our house again. He convinced me he’d changed, he was sorry.. and for a while he has been.

Now he’s going back to how he was. Sulking if I don’t want sex, shouting in front of the kids, flying off the handle for little things I say. Our 7 year old lives with his grandad 99% of the time as he won’t stay with us. My mum has a drink problem. I’ve hardly seen my friends since we got back together. Changed to a job where I don’t get to socialise as much.

I can’t afford to leave.. I earn £700 a month. I don’t know how I could live alone with the kids.

I find myself thinking of being with other men.. not in a sexual way.. just being with a kind man, a nice one, who listens and cares.

I don’t know how I can ever escape.

Could you move back in with your mum temporarily (or with another family member), get them to evict you and so you will be given a council place (you will be officially homeless then)?
Also check if you are getting all the benefits you are entitled to.
Contact the council anyway and put yourself on the list.
Contact Women's Aid and see if there is a shelter you can go to. In any case, they will advise of what to do.
Can you increase your hours /get a new job/get a second job to earn and save?
Check with Turn2Us about benefits in different scenarios you could be entitled to.
Does your partner own the house you are living in? Who pays for the kids stuff?