It all started with us meeting online the same way I met my Friend group/Roommates, gaming. We instantly clicked no issues with communicating or having a good time. When I told him I liked him he mentioned that he’s not a long distance type of guy and said no. I am but he’s not but I let him know that I was not expecting to keep it that way. I’m an adult, life is short don’t got time to really wait with how the world is. So, we tried and everything went well and still is. The only problem is I’m not sure if I’m doing anything right, wrong, for me, or just anything. I don’t know anymore. I recently moved out here and I just can’t shake the uncomfortable feeling NOT because of him but the situation. The place we live in they had a note come on the day I was coming by bus and they mentioned eviction due to multiple guest staying over the night more than a week as a warning. And theyve been here for only a week. He lives with his mom and two siblings because we’re all trying to save more money then go our separate ways. But his siblings decided to invite their gf’s over every day and have them stay after saying they’re leaving so they literally made this situation risky. Then thanksgiving, it was even more people and they kept being loud when he tried to tell them they can’t be loud. Then a note came. That’s y I’m uncomfortable and I’m in school for Pharmacy Technician but come to find out I have to let them know I’m moving (I did a month in advance) and after moving I’m just now getting new information about me having to be approved. I’m pissed and stressed in an emotionally way. Idk wtf to do but leave. But that’s only because I’m scared. Which will end our relationship because like I said he’s not a LD type of guy. before I came here I went to go see my doctor apparently I’m a bit unhealthy and me going was questioned by my mom. Then I didn’t get paid the amount of money I was expecting so I came with less money on me and it cut us off on so many plans when I arrive. THEN that note happened. THEN I almost missed my bus because they claimed it was delayed till 9am which it was not. THEN MY SCHOOL APPROVAL/DISAPPROVAL. We both agreed that if it don’t work out I’ll leave but me leaving results in us not being together and I don’t know if that’ll affect the friend group of him joining us to play. It doesn’t matter but I don’t want it to end bad or him showing up less. I took the risk to go after hearing about the note because if I didn’t then I wouldn’t be happy about “not trying” I’m always missing out on stuff in life because I do it for others so this time I tried to do what “I” want but then my school got in the way. I got disapproved. So I have to go back or I’ll owe them? But should I? I already owe so many things as it is but idk what to do. I’ve been stressed out for the past month or so since I went to the doctor more than I have ever been in my life and now I can’t even think. I just don’t know….its strange because this question keeps popping up “what is the universe trying to tell me?” My mom said that twice then he said that to himself when they claimed my bus was late. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to be a failure to my mom and have to drop out of school again I don’t want want to be one of those people with no career or anything to fall back on. My dad taught me well and my mom did too. I don’t want to struggle even longer financially. I don’t have anyone else to ask so what? I’m not regretting anything probably taking things further with him because maybe a note would have never showed up maybe the future would’ve been different.