I've only had abusive relationships, My children and I had to flee due to dv to both myself and them. I've been diagnosed with PTSD and I'm currently undergoing therapy, I've had help from women's aid and the freedom programme.
I was single for two years and then I met my now partner. We've been together nearly 10 months and I honestly can't bring myself to actually tell him I love him. We have a brilliant relationship and I know that I do love him and he's hinted that he loves me but he'd never want to put pressure on me by saying it first.
I think that I might be overthinking it, part of me just wants to go for it.