Hello lovely people,
some supportive advice would be greatly appreciated.So basically my story so far is, I’ve recently married my long term partner who I love and adore deeply, however, since we got married a few months ago our relationship has hit a rocky patch of uncertainty. He constantly criticises my parenting skills towards my children, who are to my former partner (abusive relationship-restraining order active) I’ve suffered emotional trauma due to that toxic relationship. Now I find myself struggling with my husband. We’ve experienced deep emotional trauma from my teenage DD who became the perpetrator influenced by her manipulative father who caused years of post-separation abuse to myself and DH. Our family home is currently unhappy and depressing at the moment. I’ve suggested we explore marriage counselling to save our marriage from divorce. I’m terrified I will gradually start to despise him. My mental health has nose dived recently and I have referred myself for therapy which I truly find beneficial when a person is suffering with emotional scarring from previous unhappy/abusive/toxic relationships. I don’t feel I’ve any strength/fight left in me to to contend with another broken/failing relationship/marriage. Sometimes I can’t even be in the same room because the tension is so intense to a point I feel like driving far away and never going back. On the other hand, I truly do deep down love him and would do anything to save our marriage…end of the day we are newly weds and should be enjoying these special moments as husband and wife not becoming enemies. I would love some kind and friendly advice. please be kind and not to critical towards me as I am an extremely sensitive individual. Thank you for any input or advice offered.