Been with my husband for nearly 7 years. Three years ago I found out he was still involved in a online relationship with someone that he met online before meeting me, I was crushed but we were due to get married and I just wanted to forget about it and make it all go away. Since then I've struggled on and off with trust but pushed past it until this year. In spring whilst heavily pregnant I discovered that back in 2021 after my miscarriage my husband contacted a prostitute, he said he realised what he was doing was wrong and didn't meet up with her. I did check his Google map location for the date he made contact with the sex worker and it didn't show he had made any unusual journey, my baby was due within weeks so I had to just drop the whole thing because I felt I had no choice. After I had my baby it became a problem because I just couldn't move on from it, I asked him the truth about everything and he ended up admitting to planning on meeting up with the online relationship person 10 months into our relationship when he took a trip to their country alone (twice). I know he didn't meet up with her because I contacted her but the thing is he could have been meeting someone else there while he was on his own. We've split up twice and gotten back together since our baby was born over all of this and his inability to stop spending money, he packed his bags and left for a night just two weeks ago over an expensive purchase he wanted to make (a computer). After a week of being back he was given money by his family and went and bought it anyway. Now I'm having to put up with him interacting with me while sitting on this computer. We could have been doing with that money for other things and he just doesn't get it. I'm exhausted and just feel like he makes no real effort with me anymore, no affection unless it's leading to sex. Am I crazy for feeling like he just doesn't value what he has?.